Guilty Secrets
CD 2014
CD Review - Gary Copeland Stafford Folk Music and Dance
Graham Bellinger: Guilty Secrets.
These fourteen songs might surprise those who know Graham Bellinger only as a mainstay of the Deacons. They include simple love songs, nostalgic period pieces, foot-stompers and a delightfully quirky Elvis ain’t dead fantasy. Bellinger’s tasty finger-picking guitar is one of the many highlights here and it’s given plenty of exposure in Solid Ground, a punch-the-air ragtime celebration of life, and in It’s a Song, a Paxtonesque three-chorder in praise of, erm, songs. The lyrics throughout the CD are full of surprising imagery and witty musical references and reveal a storytelling talent that only occasionally misses its target (as in the moody Earthquake Weather, an atmospheric piece that, for me, lacks focus). One of the tests of a successful song is its hook. It’s not infallible, of course (for every Smoke Gets in Your Eyes, there are hundreds of Chirpy, Chirpy, Cheep Cheeps), but it’s a useful rule of thumb. This album has several songs of quality that pass the test with flying colours. I’ve pinched a couple. But don’t tell Graham. You can -- and should -- get the album at his gigs or via his website
GUILTY SECRETS
Guilty secrets of a guilty past
Always knew they’d come out at last
Seems no one forgets and no one forgives
Those guilty secrets, long as you live
Guilty secrets there’s no doubt
One fine day they’ll find you out
You can hide them but they’ll still be found
Those guilty secrets they’re always around
Every tap on the shoulder, knock on the door
Deep inside you know what it’s for
Time to face it and pay your dues
The past is catching up with you
Maybe you were foolish, maybe you were young
Might think you’ve forgotten just what you’ve done
Don’t you know the memory lingers on
Those guilty secrets never really gone
You may believe that the past’s long dead
But it’s still living in your head
But it’ll come right back to haunt you in your sleep
Those guilty secrets – the ones that we all keep
Every tap on the shoulder, knock on the door
Deep inside you know what it’s for
Time to face it and pay your dues
The past is catching up with you
Guilty secrets, all the same
All those things that we won’t name
When we thought we’d buried them so deep
Guilty secrets, the ones that we all keep
SOLID GROUND
Used to be so solitary, used to be so sad
Anything I tried to do always turned out bad
But now it’s alright, I’ve got a smile a mile wide
That’s the truth - thank the Lord I’ve got you on my side
Waiting on the telephone, stood up in a bar
Waking late at night alone wondering where you are
But now things have changed found what I was waiting for
That’s the truth I’ve been pushing at an open door
Yes yes yes – I believe I’m grateful and I’m glad
Yes yes yes – counting all the blessings I have had
Seen it on the TV screen read it on the news
Must be in it if you want to win if not you’re bound to loose
But it’s not my ticket, I don’t need those numbers in a line
It’s the truth – I’m a winner every time
I don’t need some self help manual, don’t need no twelve step plan
Don’t need a secret password to be a happy man
I need you with me and me with you every moment every day
That’s the truth holding on all the way
Yes yes yes – I believe that this time it’s all good
Yes yes yes – this time life has turned out like it should
I don’t think about the future, don’t worry bout the past
I don’t know where I’m going or how long it’s gonna last
But now I know you’re the best thing that I’ve ever found
That’s the truth – got my feet on solid ground
WEIGHTY
He tried walking on the water
He was sinking in the sand
Thought he’d grasped the secret,
It was nails in his hands
When the party’s over and the house goes up in flames
Don’t speak in tongues of what’s been done –
Don’t go naming names
And he went to the mountain top
But it was all downhill
Betrayed his wife and family
They said they loved him still
Lost the brakes, lost the gears, soon lost all control
And he never could stop digging
When he was in a hole
Don't
you go looking
In the places you’ve been told
There’s no hiding place in palaces
Or temples made of gold
Rather be out drinking
Or singing with the boys
Kicking up a little dust
Making too much noise
Yes, I pulled into Nazareth
But the tanks had got there first
Blessed are the meek he said
But the strong had done their worst
Take a look around you, tell me what you see
Don’t say I brought this on myself
Don’t put the blame on me
UNFINISHED
Oh – where have you been
Look at the state you’re in
The way they’ve used you it’s a sin
But now you’re home
Oh since you left that way
I’ve had no song to play
Couldn’t find the words to say
So come on home – you’re not alone
I know you fell into bad company
I understand rough hands took you away from me
Although it was so wrong
It’s here that you belong
And we still have a song unfinished
In my arms back with me
Is where you’re meant to be
I don’t want to see this unfinished
Oh we can hide those scars
I’ll take you the way you are
Always the best by far
And still you are, yes you are
Some things roll right off the tracks
Some things just slip through the cracks
But some things just keep coming back
And here you are – still a star
You have no need to apologise
You found out now just where your interest lies
You’ve been through the mill
But if you have the will
We have something still unfinished
You’ve been left out in the rain
And here you are again
You are still the same - unfinished
Somewhere under city lights
Another child fades out of sight
Slipping into rainy night
Not coming home
All these children on the run
All these children holding guns
All these children stoned and stunned
And so alone, so alone
Who is there now who will repair them?
Who is there out there who’d even care for them?
Where are they going to go?
Time will surely show
Who could leave them so unfinished
Our lives are like the sand
Things slip through our hands
We never understand
Unfinished
THE MAN IN THE MOON
When I was a child we sang of the man in the moon
And we all believed we’d be flying up there soon
With one small step or a giant leap
We've grown up to learn where we stand
Watching our dreams come true but not like we'd planned
The smile that hides the substance behind the style
The distance we’ve traveled to go that last extra mile
As we dance and we follow the piper
All the way down the yellow brick road
Scattering hopes and dreams and promises owed
When you’ve taken the trip of a lifetime
And you’re stranded on the moon all alone
Look up at the stars to find your way back home
Now here we are it's the future and it's still the same
Blood sweat and the tears the last bus home in the rain
More than the clock and the diary
It's the mirror that measures the time
And here on your face is the story drawn out in each line
You know I can't tell my future
You know I can't tell the past
I only know it seems to go so fast
The man with his hand on your shoulder's come out of the wings
It's too late to win back whatever you lost on the swings
If you beat the clock and the hangman today
There's something maybe you’ve learned
This moment won’t wait while you watch the wheels all turn
L O S T A T S E A
There’s a man overboard
Swept away by the tide of affairs
And nobody can say for sure
Just where he went down
But it looks like it was the perfect storm
Looks like the end of the perfect romance
Is breaking without a sound
And he’s nowhere to be found
Castaway – beached and stranded
Castaway – empty handed
Castaway – lost at sea
Castaway – falling, floating, free
Someone said he was sinking fast
Weighted down by the dreams in his pocket
Someone saw his life flash past
And fade in the blink of an eye
And they think maybe that he lost his grip
Or the drink maybe made him loose his reason
Someone said that he’d just jumped ship
But broke when he hit the shore
Couldn’t hold on any more
Did he make it to Venezuela
Can you trust the word of a sailor
Did he make it to Valparaiso
Was he waving or drowning – I don’t know
Someone said they thought the met him
Wrecked and washed up in some run down sea port
Strange how soon we could all forget him
Strange how he drifted away
And he said he was better but he looked much worse
Said he was wiser but he was drunk and foolish
Turned from the sea with a shrug and a curse
And gazed at the bottom of his glass
While the waves rolled in so fast
Did he pull himself up on the beach
Did he find somewhere just out of reach
Is he safe in some harbour he’s found
Some say he’d be better off drowned
E A R T H Q U A K E W E A T H E R
A dog somewhere far off starts to howl
Old men outside the café glance round and scowl
They let their smoke hiss out with the thoughts they’re thinking
They spit tobacco and then turn back to their drinking
And the sky’s the colour of deep water and the air is too still
And there’s a thunder rolling round these hills
Earthquake weather – my head is aching
Earthquake weather – the ground is shaking
Earthquake weather – this world’s gone wrong
Earthquake weather – you’d best hold on
She’s been silent all day and he doesn’t know why
He could guess the reason but he won’t try
She’s been cracking down pans and slamming doors
But he’s not in the mood for rubbing old sores
And there’s an electricity that doesn’t feel right
And there’s a storm brewing in this house tonight
I’m checking the doors and windows, testing the locks
I’m counting my savings, taking stock
It doesn’t feel safe in this house today
But he won’t step outside with the world this way
There’s angry mobs gathering everywhere
And something burning in the town hall square
IT'S A SONG
It’s a song that keeps me holding on
When everything around me’s going wrong
It's a song that helps to ease my mind
When I can’t tell the reason from the rhyme
And if I find I’m sinking down
There’s one thing that saves me
It’s a song that is my lifeline
Stops me going crazy
Maybe in the light of day all my dreams are gone
But hey – it’s still a new day, and it’s the song
It’s a song……..
It’s a friend who always sticks around
Who doesn’t take my bullshit lying down
Who cuffs my head and puts me back on track
When there’s too much drink and too much looking back
And there’s a room where I’m at home
And a chair that fits me right
And there’s a porch light welcomes me
When I come back at night
Maybe I have been away from the old place too long
So what keeps coming back to me – the song
What is it can make us strong
Let us know where we belong
What is it can set us free
Voices raised in harmony
What is it can touch the heart
Though we may be far apart
No matter that the miles are long
There is magic in the song………..
……… a new day, there’s a friend
A light up in the window – journey’s end
There’s always another reason to get beat
But there’s always a bright side to the street
Sometimes these things can slip my mind
Sometimes things fall apart
Sometimes I loose the compass
Sometimes I just loose heart
But I know the ground my feet stand on,
I know where I belong
When I pick up this guitar, find the song.
BLACK AND WHITE
Black and white comes the light
From all those years ago
Grainy photos rainy nights
All you need to know
We looked over the fence, peeped under the gate
It's coming in bright colours and we just couldn't wait
Vinyl black, fourteen tracks
The secret in the sleeve
Your heart beats for Soho streets
If only you could leave
Oh to leave this county town, kick off your schoolboy shoes
They're playing in new tunings, have you heard the news
Renbourne, Jansch, Davey Graham
Tellling me I’ve got nothing to loose
Stories of a road through France
You take when you want to pay your dues
But me I have to wait til summer
Schooldays over and my hair grown long
Maybe next year maybe never - just to step away
Silver strings and a Turkish ring
Thumb out on the roadside
Sleeping bag and West Coast Rag
Can get you on the inside
Of all the steamy windows of smoke filled coffee bars
In all those all night sessions with all the six string stars
The old A5, the National Seven
Denmark Street, heaven and hell
Doorways, mysteries
Dreams to live, lies to tell……….
Join the tribe of weekend wanderers
Sleepy, smiling slightly stoned
Maybe this way maybe that - just a step away
Sodium flares, a bare bulb glares
The rain comes through the roof
Just roll it up and drain the cup
Makes you bullet proof
Don't worry about what's coming
Don’t worry bout what is gone
Loose yourself in magic
The singer and the song
Reeling round Tottenham Court Road
Then down to Cousins to hear the blues
They tell me that someone there
Has an old guitar there that he don’t use
Heard he's giving it all away
Bought a gypsy caravan
Going to Galway or Khatmandu – just a step away
Maybe next year maybe never - just a step away
LOST HORIZON
When I was a boy I bought myself a guitar
Plywood and wire from the USSR
It was cheap and nasty it was all I could afford
But I learned some tunes and I learned some chords
It was really hard to hold down the strings
It wouldn’t stay in tune and the sound didn’t ring
But I persevered on that lump of wood
Learned Bm7 and it made me feel good
Looking for the old lost chord boys,
We’re all looking for the holy grail
Looking for the lost horizon
And hoping to find it in a junk shop sale
(Freight Train)
Well a few years later I had a little money
Thought I’d buy a guitar wasn’t quite so crummy
I got myself a new one made in Japan
All put together Yamaha San
Well those Japanese guitars are good in their way
But the best guitars are from the USA
So it wasn’t too long before I’m back in the shop
Looking for a guitar with Gibson on the top
(Streets of London)
Well I got myself a Gison, was a J45
Took it to the folk club, thought I was the jive
Then I turned on the TV and knew I’d blundered
There was Neil Young playing a J200
So I scrimped and I saved everything I had
Scoured the Guitarist magazine ads
Travelled the country scoured the land
Looking for a dream I could buy second hand
(Angi)
Well I worked through shops, drove salesmen mad
Trying out every guitar they had
For my dream guitar I’d give my right hand
Sell the wife and kids, even sell my band
Now I’ve got this guitar it’s ebony and pearl
Maple and rosewood the best in the world
It’s a real great guitar, I hear everybody say it
And it cost so much money I’m too scared to play it
……………but you don’t get the grail in a junk shop sale